What Should I Do [2]

What should I do..
I can't seem to sleep..
My mind won't let me,
What should I do...

Should I accept that there is a possibility
that someone better for you is out there?
Should I confess that sometimes I wonder,
I wonder if it's love we feel or clouded love with lust
.. What should I do..

Should I admit that it would better to find someone else,
That it's how I feel sometimes..
I know I love you ..
but it's because I love you that I wonder if I'm the best...

Should I confess if I've had thoughts of you being happier with
someone else?
You tell them that it would never happen and that it's not like that..
But I've been that person before.. I know the situation ..
Should I accept that perhaps there is a possibility for stronger feelings than you admit?

... What should I do?
Should I be ashamed and horrible for thinking that?
...
I don't know anymore..
What should I do...

Should I admit that I have doubts?
Who doesn't we're only human right?
Then why is it so hard to admit I can't be perfect..
Should I admit that it's 'cause I try to be perfect?
I try to be everything you deserve,
but sometimes my own nature goes against that...

What should I do ...
I try to be mature about things, but sometimes it's hard.
It's hard when I want to succumb to my emotions because
it's easier, but then I remember than I'm the older one.
I have to be the mature one; it's what people expect..

What should I do..
Should I be who you want me to be?
Give myself to a ... "God" ..
What should I do...
I used to at least think that I had these answers..

Now a days, I just repress it and listen to more music ..
Hopefully it goes away... For good this time..

- Francis Frustration