Frustration..

This is going to be .... hard....

I already know how you are going to react to this news..

Look.

I understand that this means everything to you, 

but I don't want you to think that it means nothing to me or 

it isn't as important to me...

Honestly I do want to see you and spend time with you and to meet you family.

I really do .,. but I can't just ditch my blood family..

Especially when I have the chance to see my cousins who I barely to never see ..

Honestly, this is really complicated and I'm not sure I can put this in words ..

I know you'll get angry and I know we might end up fighting over this..

I want to be as mature as I possibly can in order to stay in the good side of my parents as well as yours ..

But I feel like I'll only prove to not deserve your love ..

That's all I can say at the moment ...

- Francis Frustration