.... [Venting]

Sometimes I wonder.. Why I put all this effort in. Why I bother trying.  You clearly don't care about this enough to put any sort of seemingly clear effort into it.

Yet I seem to always put my all into it. Everyone says move on .. I'm better off looking somewhere else, but I'm always convincing myself you'd be worth it. That in the end we'd be happy for struggling through all of this.  We'll look back and feel proud.

You make me feel like I am standing on the highest point; as I look at the world below me. Sadly those moments are rare now a days... As much as I cherish them.. I feel hurt more often than I don't.

I feel rock bottom; like I'm never important or good enough.
I feel like everyone else seems to be worth your time, and you don't mind messing with my head 'cause you know I'll always forgive you.

You know how I feel, yet you still find entertainment in leading me to a sand trap.
I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with this anymore.

I can't sleep and when I do, I find myself with tear stains ...

You don't seem to get it.
It means too much to me?

Well... Forgive me ..
I can't just "like" someone else..
My feelings are for you.
I love YOU.
.... and for you I'll just be another one..
Just someone else to hang out with so you don't feel alone.

I really didn't mean anything to you did I?
The fact that you can make a promise like promising me you'll text me when you move away..

You never text me, you text him all the time.
... Guess I'm not worth your time..
I always seem to fall for your type..

The type that just uses me ..

- Francis Frustration