I Wonder ...

What would happen if I left..
If I disappeared from your life..

What would happen?
I may never know,
or at least how you would
truly feel.

Let me tell you how I feel about it:
It kills. It hurts to think about a life without you ... I know I may never be the best, but I'll always try .. I know our friendship is treasured by me, but I'll never truly know if it's treasured by you ..  Call it paranoia but that's how I feel.  You're an amazing person, and you will always be able to make new friends.. I wish I could say the same.  All I can do is cherish the friends I have now and hope they don't abandon me. I will do whatever it takes to maintain our friendship because I miss you ... More than anyone of my other friends I have ever lost ... But I'm sure you have no problem replacing my with someone better ... and I have no doubt that you can and you probably will..

Who knows .. Maybe I'm taking this more seriously then I should ... You seem to not be worrying about how things will end up... then why am I so worried... Maybe it's 'cause I know how I lucky I am that you haven't already ditched me ....

I just hope you don't ... It's all I can ever ask of you without feeling selfish .. and even then I feel guilty at the thought of it ...

- Francis Frustration