Here's the Thing ...

I always do my best and TRY to put my 100% BEST effort into EVERY friendship regardless of who the person may be, but it's hard..

I always feel used and half the time I always feel like no one ever really cares about me as much as I care about them.

That might just be my paranoia though.. Everyone keeps saying they care but at the same time.. I don't know anymore.

Actions speak louder than words and from my FIRST week at university .. Everything seems to be screaming at me..

I know people don't MEAN to hurt me (Or at least I HOPE so) .. But it happens.

I'm not one to bother people with my problems, but the LEAST you can do is try.

Or at least REMEMBER that I did my best ... So maybe you could try even a TAD bit harder for me?

Even as I type that request.. I know it's selfish .. so I don't ACTUALLY ask for that from my friends.. but deep inside.. I long for it..

My friends are my second family and it hurts when they forget me.

That's been happening A LOT lately...

I feel like music and writing seems to be the only thing keeping me from breaking down..

I'm at school almost ALL day now with the exception of tuesdays ...

THIS is the Real world? ...

and to think... All I REALLY, HONESTLY need.. is someone to talk to and to be with...

Guess that's too much to ask for...

- Francis Frustration