The Real World in 5 ..

In 5 days it starts.

I leave for Frosh Week.

I start living the "REAL WORLD"

No more fantasy high school BS

Everything that happens from now on

Is serious

I can't fuck up anymore

No more mistakes

I need to focus

The people who are important to me

Mean that much more now.

University's starting soon

My life hangs in the balance of these grades;

I've ALREADY lost my scholarship

and I plan on making my own money

Balancing a job and school is gonna be

The hardest thing I ever attempt;

I wanna make my parents proud,

I know HOW.. I just wish it wasn't this stressful.

5 Days... It happens.

5 Days my best friend moves out to live on her own for school.

I wish her the best of luck but..

I know it's gonna kill me.

I want to be there when she moves but I don't think I'll be able to and that breaks my heart.

She's become the closest person to me BESIDES my girlfriend and I just can't seem to imagine Brampton WITHOUT her..

5 Days ... I wish she knew how much this is effecting me.. But I can't show it.. I have to smile.. so that our last few hangouts before she leaves are happy ...

And I KNOW she'll back to visit whenever she can .. but I know she has closer friends that she's known longer that'll want to hang out with her .. she'd have more fun with them anyways .. and I can't always be available when she is, because I have my own love in Milton.

... 5 Days and I won't even be there for some of them...

Time to grow up and become a part of the world I watched as a kid growing up

Now I'm going to join "Society"

- Francis Frustration

Inside the mind of The Frustrated #6

"There is ONE thing I hate above ALL others: Stupid people. People who waste their lives and go out of their way to mess with people in their past. I am a part of your past for a REASON. I didn't WANT to be in your present. Why would you waste time out of YOUR life to come back and start shit with me when things were going fine WITHOUT either of us in each other's business. Now, you come back saying you got a BONE to pick with me? FUCK YOU. It's been months and NEARLY A WHOLE DAMN YEAR. Grow up you stupid bitch and move on. If you had ANY BALLS or MANHOOD you would of come sooner. What makes you think you're suddenly gonna come and out and think I'm gonna take you seriously? You mean NOTHING to me. Deal with it. She doesn't mean anything either; you two are BOTH two faced bitches but you two still manage to be different enough to be perfect for each other. Have fun in your life WITHOUT me. My life is doing great WITHOUT and I don't plan on changing that ANYTIME soon."

- Francis Frustration

Something I haven't done in (What feels like) forever

I'm planning on doing a COUPLE more ADTR covers and POSSIBLY learn some Paramore and record some covers from "The Cure"

Stay posted and I'll keep you updated!

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- Francis Frustration

Inside the mind of The Frustrated #5

"Don't be friends with someone who won't make the effort. I learned that the hard way... I went through hell and back and I did the craziest shit for this person .. I went completely out of my way and made my life hell for my friends who simply took it and when they found me useless so they replaced me ... I wanna say 'FUCK THEM' ... but even after all that.. I still care, because they were my friends.. and sometimes I wish they knew how much they meant to me even though I don't show it."

- Francis Frustration

Dear (Current) Ex Friends

This is stupid. This silence that is between us. It's been weeks since you've spoken ONE word to me. I find that to be the MOST immature thing ... It's also kind of sad.

This is what we've become? I thought our friendship MEANT something to you.

Talking to me seems like such a burden to you now.

I think I should just stop, even though it breaks my heart; whether you believe it or not, it always hurts to lose a friend.

I guess this just shows how much you DIDN'T know me.. and how much of your personality I never really got to see until that day.

You tell me that I was the bitch for doing what I did, and maybe you're right. Maybe I should apologize, but at this point my words are worthless to you. You tell me that I've used you yet I've never once received the thanks I felt I deserved for all the effort I put into our "friendship". Or maybe that's just my teenage angst talking, and maybe I don't deserve more than I have?

You replaced me, but in all honestly .. Even though I talk a lot .. There isn't anyone that can replace YOU .. You're personality pissed me off ... but at the same time .. You're friendship USED to make it worth it .. Till now.

Now I'm nothing to you, and yet.. You still float across MY mind ...

- Francis Frustration

Inside the mind of The Frustrated #4

"It pisses me off so much when I think of a situation in my head, think of all the possible ways I should handle said situation but when the moments comes; It turns out COMPLETELY different. It's like, as soon as I HAVE to execute ... I get nervous and improv on the spot, but always fail in the end. Why can't I just pick up my balls and do what I want to do? I think I know the answer to that. I expect too much of myself. I expect myself to go out and make this BIG thing out of it. I blame movies for making think in big and dramatic moments instead of realistic ones."

- Francis Frustration

Inside the mind of The Frustrated #3

" Sometimes the hardest thing a man can do is the right thing, because the wrong thing is too easy. It's always the easy route that tempts us with what we believe to be a solution when it only ends up giving us a quick fix. The hard thing may not be the easy thing but that doesn't necessarily mean that the easy thing always has to be hard"

- Francis Frustration

Inside the mind of The Frustrated #2

"When a man is dead silent; it's because he's screaming inside about everything that is currently happening to him. Your words tear him apart, but the difference is: He hides it differently. Whether or not you see that as a skill or a curse is entirely up to you but know this much: He'll never let you know how your opinion affects him. His mind is too busy dealing with everything happening to worry about commentary"

- Francis Frustration

I would give up sex to be able to play this

What We've Become

Entertainment has become Technology

"Face to Face" has become "Wall to Wall"

"Flirting" has become online

No longer having to meet and greet,

Comments and "Likes" are all we're accustomed to.

We love everyone,

but we love the moments

Where we talk behind their back.

Clothes become everything we are

They define our personality

and our music;

Becomes the judge of who we

Should be with.

No one fears death anymore

Isolation seems to be much worse

So instead we commit suicide

and we become someone that people

Will love and respect.

Personalities lost in a mainstream flood.

Will we ever save ourselves in time?

- Francis Frustration

Inside the mind of The Frustrated #1

I've decided to start a "Thing" on my blog to make things INTERESTING for anyone who reads and follows my blog.

Whenever I come up with an interesting or insightful quote on the top of my head about anything and everything I shall update it here for your feedback and pleasure.

Now obviously for this idea to have been thought of I must have a quote in mind for today

So here it is:

"Freedom will only come to humanity when we can honestly say that what we do is solely based on our desires. However, can one not argue that our desires are based on others around us? If our desires are based on the influence of what others want .. Can we ever achieve pure freedom and act on our own?"

- Francis Frustration

The World NEEDS more honesty ...

The NEW Disturbed album.

"Asylum"

Set to be released at the end of August.

This video showcases EXACTLY what we've done to the world.

We need to act fast... Before we lose ourselves in our own mad desires

We ALSO need more music videos like THIS.

So we can finally see the TRUTH.

- Francis Frustration

My left ear is no longer a virgin..

So to speak ..

Today got my ear pierced. I was surprised by how much it DIDN'T hurt ... But I knew I could handle pain so I wasn't worried, yet I was still somehow nervous.

It almost DIDN'T happen though. Yesterday, me and my friend Emilia had walked all the way to the nearby Claires at Trinity Common, but we found out that their gun was broken (We ended up just eating at Mr. Greek, then walking home). So, my mom volunteered to drive me and Emilia to Bramalea today to get it done at the Claires there.

I think it turned out pretty awesome.

What do you guys think?

- Francis Frustration