Fun Fact #3

"I'm losing all hope in relationships and believing more and more in having 'friends with benefits' as a way of having fun without all of the heartbreak, pain and disappointment"

- Francis Frustration

.... [Venting]

Sometimes I wonder.. Why I put all this effort in. Why I bother trying.  You clearly don't care about this enough to put any sort of seemingly clear effort into it.

Yet I seem to always put my all into it. Everyone says move on .. I'm better off looking somewhere else, but I'm always convincing myself you'd be worth it. That in the end we'd be happy for struggling through all of this.  We'll look back and feel proud.

You make me feel like I am standing on the highest point; as I look at the world below me. Sadly those moments are rare now a days... As much as I cherish them.. I feel hurt more often than I don't.

I feel rock bottom; like I'm never important or good enough.
I feel like everyone else seems to be worth your time, and you don't mind messing with my head 'cause you know I'll always forgive you.

You know how I feel, yet you still find entertainment in leading me to a sand trap.
I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with this anymore.

I can't sleep and when I do, I find myself with tear stains ...

You don't seem to get it.
It means too much to me?

Well... Forgive me ..
I can't just "like" someone else..
My feelings are for you.
I love YOU.
.... and for you I'll just be another one..
Just someone else to hang out with so you don't feel alone.

I really didn't mean anything to you did I?
The fact that you can make a promise like promising me you'll text me when you move away..

You never text me, you text him all the time.
... Guess I'm not worth your time..
I always seem to fall for your type..

The type that just uses me ..

- Francis Frustration

My "Role"

This is what I'll be

For the rest of my life

Nothing seems to ever change

Nothing ever seems to feel right.

You think you've gone past it all

You think it'd be different

Nothing ever changes

You'd be naive to think against it

It seems like

the only thing

that fate likes 

to make me 

is the single friend.

I'm going to be single,

and I'm always going to be there

For everyone but myself.

I'll be the guy who supports everyone else

but lives alone

I'll be that guy who everyone "appreciates" 

and wonders why he hasn't found anyone

Yet no one is willing to take the risk

Every group of friends needs a person like this.

I guess that has to be me,

no one else wants to step up...

- Francis Frustration

Love

Love

You think it couldn't get any more simple?

It couldn't get more complicated.

Love

You think you get it.

You could never be more far from the truth

Love

You think you've gotten hurt enough

You think that you'd finally have a moment

You could never be more wrong.

Love

You think people care about you

You could never be more naive 

Love

You think you've cried enough tears..

These tears prove you to be so wrong...

Oh so wrong...

- Francis Frustration

What If ...

What if
I told you that everything wasn't as it seems
If I told you you were more to me than I would admit

Would you believe me?
If I told you that thoughts of you
Flowed me head every day.
If I told you that,
I only wanted to do anything
Involving us together

Would you want to still be with me?

What if,

I told you that through everything
Through all my experiences,
I still wish you felt the same about me

Even though I know I couldn't force an opinion on you

Would you try and give me a chance?

What if ...

- Francis Frustration

Fun Fact #2

"Every morning I try and wake up extra early to work out. I've also started a diet where I only eat so much per meal and for each meal I do my best to have one of each food group on my plate.  I try to avoid fast food and junk food as much as I possibly can.  I also plan on jogging in the mornings when the weather warms up in the summer and I plan on taking my "Tuesdays" off York to hit gym at York to maintain a workout schedule.  With all that certainty, the one thing I am unsure about is whether or not I should maintain long hair or if I should just cut if off and go with short hair from now on.  As much as I love my long hair, it doesn't seem to be attractive to anyone else."

- Francis Frustration

Inside the Mind of The Frustrated #27

"There might be hundreds of thousands of girls out there... but you'll be the only one who will make me feel this way... You'll never understand exactly how many tears I shed every night ... I'm always afraid I'm going to lose you ... I feel like I mean nothing to you .. When you're my world"

- Francis Frustration

Fun Fact #1

I know I already did this before, but due to recent changes in my life I realized I needed to start a new.

New year = new me (In this case).

I am a full NHB supporter.
NHB = Never Held Back
(I am wearing an NHB shirt in the above picture)

NHB = The group led by DPrizzy AKA D Pryde AKA
Russell Llantino
If you don't know who he is, check him out on youtube!

Debut album coming soon!
Keep your eyes open for that!

- Francis Frustration

Inside The Mind of The Frustrated #26

"This might be the most clichéd thing I will ever admit to, but I swear every second we spend together my heart skips every other beat.  I found myself smiling like an idiot the entire way back to my bus.  I may never admit this, but my face was burning red. In a sense... You kept me warm tonight without even knowing it.. I can't wait to see you again."

- Francis Frustration

The Friend Zone (The Breakdown)

If you already know or have heard of “The Friend Zone”, then I am sure that you will understand what I mean when I say that it is one of the biggest obstacles man will ever  face in terms of “Getting some” so to speak. If you are completely unaware of “The Friend Zone” then allow me to explain what it is, and you can thank me later. 

There are several stages that people go through in terms of their relationships with other people. In order to explain what “The Friend Zone” is, I will first explain what the 6 stages are in our relationships with people. 

Stage 1 (Strangers)

It’s pretty straightforward and obvious. Everyone starts off as strangers. Unless you have some sort of secret file of everyone in your area with all of their information that allows you to “know them” before actually knowing them, then this is where it starts. We usually end this stage with finding something you two have in common or simply out of building up the confidence to go out and talk to new people. 

Stage 2 (Acquaintances)

It’s at this stage where you are at the very least on a “name to name” basis. Or at least one of you remembers their name and the other person remembers their face (I hope).  It’s the point where you’ve seen each other and talked enough times to be able to say that you know then, but not as well as one of their usual friends that they are always seen with.  The only one can possibly leave this stage is to spend more quality to become closer friends. Hopefully, by then you’ll know them by face and actually remember their name by then. 

Stage 3 (Frequent Friends)

This is also where the “Friend Zone” begins so pay attention now.  “The Friend Zone” is seen as the zone where most girls want to stay at. For a very long time; trust me, a very long time.  I called this stage “Frequent Friends” as this is the time where you see each other often, but only casually.  You’ve talked a lot, but you haven’t started any conversations that would be considered “serious”.  Girls consider this stage to be the first step in a friendship, as this lets them figure a person out in terms of habits and certain aspects of their personality they may or may not like.  In order for one to see the next stage; they must simply start dedicating more time into this person.  They’ll have to start getting into their personal space; slowly but surely helping them with their personal issues and gain a special trust and bond with them. 

Stage 4 (Good/Best Friends)

Listen careful, this is when “The Friend Zone” traps you. For anyone looking for sex, this is not where you look.  Once a girl gains complete trust in intrusting you with personal space as well as personal time, that’ll be everything she wants in a “friend”.  If you hide your sexual desires from her too well, she may never know it’s what you truly want.  If you reveal it to her too late, then you’ll get the “We have such a good friendship, I wouldn’t want to ruin it by taking a risk” speech.  This is the speech that kills all hope and chances, unless you want to take the risk in pursuit and possibly lose the person altogether.  That’s how “The Friend Zone” traps you.  You wok hard to gain their trust, get close, dedicate your time and when you try and make a move and become “Friends with Benefits” (Which is the next stage); the plan backfires.  Now, there are one of two things you can do at this point: You can either stay in this stage as long as it takes for her to change her mind, or do your best to avoid this stage altogether so you can jump into the “Friends with Benefits” stage. You can do this by making sure she knows from the get go that you want action and that you want it with her.  Some girls like it when guys are straight up with what they want; it means you aren’t afraid to take what you like, and it also means you have confidence which is another plus. 

Stage 5 (Friends with Benefits)

This is every man’s dream.  I mean, this is the stage that means sex without commitment.  What straight guy wouldn’t die to have this life?  This is the light at the end of the tunnel that (for arguments sake) we’ll call the “Good/Best Friends” stage.  This is the stage where the two of you fool around for fun and absolutely love being together. You act like a couple, but at the same time have a mutual understanding that there is no relationship and thus there is no commitment for either person.  The only step you could possibly take further is our next stage, which is an actual relationship.  Depending on what your taste is however, you may wish to stay at this stage.  However, “The Friend Zone” is going to make one lasting statement.  This is in terms of how long you wish to stay in this final stage of “The Friend Zone”. 

Stage 6 (Relationship)

Depending on your views this may be Heaven or Hell. On one end, you’ve finally broken out of “The Friend Zone” and into that special someone.  However, you can no longer mingle with anyone other than your significant other but that shouldn’t be a problem if you’ve picked the right one (Hopefully).  So on the plus side you’ve found that perfect someone, however you’ve restricted myself to only having sex with one person.  Whether you agree with or not is entirely up to you.  If you do agree with the idea of the perfect relationship, then my best advice for you is to just be yourself.  Who needs pick up lines when the person is supposed to “love” you and not the fake image you make of yourself. 

All in all “The Friend Zone” was seemingly created by girls to ensure that they are not played by “Man Whores” and to ensure that they get to know that special someone long enough to know it’s them.  For all you men who actually are “Man Whores” and looking for just sex and I don’t mean to say that all of you are “Man Whores” I have but this piece of advice for you; honesty is the best policy.  Let the girl know all you want is sex and hopefully you meet the one that doesn’t mind the lack of commitment. You just have to be patient and be prepared for slaps and insults galore.  

- Francis Frustration

Inside the Mind of The Frustrated #25

‎"Keep smiling.. It's what they wanna see... and make sure you're the person for them when 

they need you to be. But one thing you should never ever .. need to deal with .. is their bull 

shit .. but you know that you'll still get it.. It'll keep coming; you can't control it.. You can only 

overcome it."

- Francis Frustration