Dead and Divine [Part 4]

Then, something happened. A part of my life I had surprisingly forgot. The suicide had indirectly been a way of breaking up with my girlfriend (at least in my eyes). I could never hurt anyone the way I had always been. I wanted her to do better than me, as I knew she could. She was beautiful and perfect and I was always a mess of chaos and destruction. Yet, when I saw my twin with her, I could fell my tears cut across my face yet again.

“Do you see how happy you two were? She accepted you when the world didn’t. But the world corrupted your self image to the point of no return. It was a shame to watch you do that to yourself.”

… Why didn’t you stop me?

“I knew I couldn’t change your mind”

… I can’t let him make my mistake

“What?”

I have to go down

“Now?”

No.

I would wait, for that fateful decision. I would save a life. As the years went on, I saw the happiness and I realized that perhaps I had made a huge mistake. She became his family. The family I wish I had. With that realization, I made an oath to myself to ensure my twin lived in a better world than mine.

The day finally came. June 16, 5:00PM. Exactly two hours before the fact.

I want to go down

“So you’ve changed your mind, as I knew you would”

He has too much to live for

“And you didn’t? I told you his life would be exactly as yours”

Well, I made the mistake … he shouldn’t suffer for it.

His parents asked him if he wanted to come with him to the mall later. I knew that if he didn’t, he would die. I would be his conscience for that night. As I went into his head, I remembered all of the thoughts that went through my own head when I died. I realized that my moment had come as a test, I failed and if I didn’t act now, someone else would die. I talked to my twin in an attempt to stop his suicide attempt. As we talked, I realized how young and foolish we both were. Thinking we knew everything, when really we knew nothing of the world we lived in. I went back to the afterlife at 6:30PM. That was all the time needed.

“So? Did you do what you came down to do?”

It’s your turn to watch

“… and what will you show me”?

What I’ve learned.

With that, both I and society’s “GOD” watched as he accepted his parents offer to go out to the mall, thus saving his life. However, neither his parents nor anyone would know of his attempt at taking his own life. He would keep it as his dirty little secret for the rest of his 82 years that he lived. I watched him leave his legacy through his son, and with that I begun my new life; the beginning of eternity in the afterlife. I can now rest in peace.