Inside the Mind of The Frustrated #20

"Some people turn to religion, and faith during times of stress and struggle. I turn to music. It's the only thing that's seemed to help me other than my friends. Religion has never really helped me through my problems, and in some cases it's only made more out of my guilty conscience. Sometimes I feel like it's abandoned me, so I live by my own code of conduct. Do what you can, when you can because no one else will do anything if you don't make the first move. I believe that if you are a good person, and you live your life to the fullest you can, happiness should follow. It SHOULD follow. It doesn't always as I've experienced."

- Francis Frustration

The Trip

All it takes is one

One leads to another

Another leads to a couple

A couple lead to a round

A round leads to a lot more

A lot more is where the trouble can start

Caffeine, Cocaine,

Alcohol, Marijuana,

Call it whatever you want

Too much comes with a cost

Are you willing to pay it?

You told yourself it would be a boost

You wouldn’t be an addict

Truth is,

Everyone says that

You’re getting high,

But you’re feeling at an

All time low

Judgement blurs

Vision follows

Common sense doesn’t seem

So common now does it?

Nothing is real anymore

You wanted to live,

So you risked your life

For one night?

Does that sound right

To you?

My addiction always comes back

From time to time

We’re aren’t the same though

I learned to control it,

But you succumbed to it

I find outlets,

You find dealers

I find company with friends,

You make company with fake ones

I went for help,

And people helped me.

You didn’t trust them.

I wish you did;

They showed me

The real happiness of my life

Not the fake kind drugs gave me

The fake one it gave us

You saw me through so much,

You should have let me return the favour

I owe you so much,

I should have done more for you

If only you let me

We both went down the same path,

I told you I would never come back

I wish you went with me.

Now you’ve walked too far down

The path is so far deep

It’s next to impossible to help you

I want to though

You’re my friend

I wish you know that,

It hurts me to see you like this

You told me once,

That we were the same

Our fates were intertwined

Everything happened for a reason.

Now, I see you could never be so wrong

I see that our one difference

Makes all the difference in the world,

No matter what was common between us

Because what was common was drugs

What was different was the end result

The difference between you and me?

You’ve reached your spot at the graveyard

Mine’s still on reservation.

- Francis Frustration

Inside the Mind of The Frustrated #19

"You never cease to disappoint. Why should I even bother expecting you to understand anymore. Why should I even bother attempting to explain myself. Whenever I try to explain the situation, you always seem to simply tune me out and hear what you want to hear. You come to your own conclusions, and you don't think that anyone else's point of view makes sense. Well, you know what? Sometimes peoples actions aren't always based on a 'reward system'. Some people do things and do favors for people, because they like them and want to help them. It's called friendship. I apologize if that seems insane to you, but people actually care about each other enough that they help each other out. It might not seem logical to you, but friendship isn't based on logic. It's based on what we're willing to do in order to be with the people you love. You can't just assume that I forced a decision, because I would never have to. I would only ask of them something that they would want to do, and they would be honest enough to let me know if they want to or not. Times have changed. Why can't you see that ..."

- Francis Frustration

After 4 Months of Growing ..

I'm quite pleased with the results.

Despite, being back at square one in terms of growing my hair.

I can't wait to see how it'll turn out.

I like it, even though I resented getting it cut at first.

I figured if I'm going to grow my hair out, then at least make it grow out nicely

What do YOU think?

- Francis Frustration

A Reunion of Sorts ..

Thank you face book.

For allowing our friendship to remain intact.

After ALL these years.. After we moved our separate ways in life and grew up.

Years later.. We met up and we had an awesome reunion.

It was good seeing everyone and all grown up.

Friends till the end.

I feel so grateful that I am able to stay in touch with such wonderful friends.

We plan on getting together once a month.

I can't wait.

It's always a pleasure knowing that we were able to remain friends through all these years

Not to mention the changes we've been through individuals.

Time flies by, so we're going to try and enjoy each second till the end.

- Francis Frustration

I need YOUR HELP!

Yours truly is having a dilemma!

In the picture above is a picture of all the CDs I have uploaded on my Ipod so far ..

But even with ALL THAT ..

I need NEW MUSIC.

Which is why right now I am asking YOU, because YOU (The readers) are the only people that can help solve this problem.

Whether or not you have a blog or not.. I want you to leave your TOP ten bands/artists via comments on this post.

I have A LOT of music, but some of it is growing old and I need to update my library with new music.

I am open to ALL types of genres and styles, but on a side note I've been listening to A LOT of Post- Hardore, Punk style music with breakdowns and the occasional guitar solo.

Looking forward to your feedback!

ALL comments/Top ten lists will be published !

- Francis Frustration

Torn ...

This tears me inside out ..

I wish this would never happen..

I wish I could explain without seeming unfair.

That seems next to impossible right now

Actually.

It DOES seem impossible ..

I wish it didn't have to be like this ..

She doesn't mean it the way you're taking this.

She has her own significant other..

Honestly..

I wish you didn't despise her..

She's a part of my friend circle..

What do you want me to do?

I see two paths I could take

Someone gets hurt either way ..

I wish you didn't take it like that..

I wish you could trust them the way I do..

We could all be great friends..

I wish you could see

that they do respect my relationship..

I told you that everyone I meet,

I do my best to ensure they know

I am taken

You have me,

no one else will.

I wish you could trust that

I'll never want anyone else.

I see what I would have to do..

To give you perfection ..

It hurts..

I wish I didn't have to..

It's just the way some people are..

Everyone's perspective on what is deemed appropriate

Is different ..

I wish you could see it the same way I did..

But I can't force anything on you ..

I'm not taking sides..

I'll always love you..

I just wish that..

It didn't bother you..

Words can't describe how..

Frustrated with how to express myself...

I wish you could of met everyone..

BEFORE not wanting to meet them..

I know your being honest...

I wish I DIDN'T bother you.

I wish it didn't mean anything..

I wish it didn't lead to..

THIS.

- Francis Frustration

A Message to My Fellow Canadians ..

Have a very happy and safe thanksgiving!

Hope you all enjoy the holiday and spend your day off with your loved ones, friends, as well as family.

One thing I am definitely thankful for this year is all the support my blog has gotten from YOU the readers!

I am also extremely grateful for all the love and support the Mrs. has given me and I'd like to take this opportunity to thank you.

I was lucky enough to spend my thanksgiving with her family and it was a memorable thanksgiving.

Thanks to the Marshall family for allowing me to become a part of the family holiday.

I love you all for that.

- Francis Frustration

Inside the Mind of The Frustrated #17

"The story of Pandora's Box is that out of all the evil released into the world, Hope is trapped within the box. To be honest I think that in a way it's good. This may sound like a stretch, but when we are given something without effort or work towards it we tend to take it for granted. We don't seem to appreciate that we have it until we are at risk of losing it. When Pandora released evil onto the world, it forced the world to come together against what was seen as 'evil'. As crazy as you might think this sounds, Pandora trapped hope because it forced us to create out own. We created Hope from desperation and as a result, it was greatly cherished. If hope was handed over, I don't think we would of appreciated it as much as we do today. That's my side on things."

- Francis Frustration

BIG NEWS!

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That website? ^

If you go to it, you will find THIS BLOG.

That's right!

My blog, thanks to YOU the readers was good enough to reach the ears of this website.

As a result, they have decided to publish my blog as the "featured blog".

This could NOT have been done WITHOUT YOUR help so I just want to take this opportunity.

To thank each and EVERYONE of you.

I know I might be making a big deal out of this .. but this is the FIRST time something like this has EVER happened to me.

Expect A LOT more blogging and A LOT more me!

Keep on reading and thanks again to those who CONTINUE to read my blog.

You have my UNDYING respect.

- Francis Frustration

THE movie I have been waiting for ..

Or at least ever since I finished reading the series.

I can ONLY foresee amazing results and happiness out of me watching it.

- Francis Frustration

Inside the Mind of The Frustrated #16

"Sometimes the people that get along the most are those that don't have a lot in common. Those who 'agree to disagree'. They seem to get along better than those with similar interests. I think this happens, because these two people are strong enough to put aside their differences and understand their care and love for each other. Not to say that it would be better to have LESS in common ... More to say that it's better to cherish your differences as it makes you who you are as an individual. No one is 'perfectly right' for each other, and no one will ever perfectly fit our description of our 'perfect significant other'. That being said, you must be able to put your differences aside and use your differences to come closer together in love and unity. It's the difference that makes people see the connection between two people in love."

- Francis Frustration

Need vs Want

What's the difference?

It can sometimes feel like you need something when you really just want it.

This is what I think the difference is:

When you WANT something. it only lasts a certain amount of time before you want something else. Whether it takes hours, days, months or even years sometimes. A want will always die in time and be replaced with something new.

When you NEED something?

That's when you'll ALWAYS have the desire for it.

It's the feeling of being incomplete with it.

Don't get it mixed up with wanting something though.

You can live without something you want.

You CAN'T live without something or even someone you NEED.

That's why heartbreak can seem so harsh sometimes.

You develop a NEED for the other person, and when they leave you;

All hope SEEMS to be lost.

But just remember, if something is MEANT to happen it WILL happen

and ALWAYS keep in mind:

Hope exists as long as we continue to have faith in it's existence.

- Francis Frustration