Inside The Mind of The Frustrated #29

"As much as I try and hide it.. As much as I try to stay positive... I can never seem to feel good enough about myself.  Everyone seems to find everyone else better than me in some way or form.  I can never be good enough for anyone, and it's not like I try to please people... I just wish people would love me for me; Everyone else seems to be amazing at being themselves but no one seems to appreciate me for myself."

- Francis Frustration

I need YOUR HELP! (AGAIN)

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- Francis Frustration

Money

We earn it to spend it,

We save it up to spend it.

We buy things that only last a finite time

Thinking they'll fast forever in the moment

Yet we can't stop.

We make money to spend it,

sometimes it makes me wonder

.. Wonder why we do it.

Why we go through a vicious cycle..

We buy things we don't really need,

but we lie to ourselves.

The difference between me and most people?

I admit that I don't need half of anything,

I'll confess I buy what I want.

It's not the smartest,

but it's the honest.

Just don't forget though..

Money comes and goes,

but if you got no one to spend it with,

It's pointless.

- Francis Frustration

Dear Love,

I no longer believe in you.

I guess this is a sort of farewell speech ... You've never done any good. The moments that  felt good; I look back and see that they were all lies.  None of them were real, and I see that now.

You never gave me anything, but pain and disappointment. Every time I feel like I've finally found a way to play your "game", you find a way to change the way things work.  Even if it sometimes doesn't make sense. You'll do anything to break my heart won't you?

Well, I'm long longer falling for your charm.  Nothing will phase me now.
I'd like to formally thank you, for ridding me of any hope I may of had for love and relationships.

That whole .. "Happily Ever After" bull shit? .. Doesn't work with me anymore.
I realized that if I ever want to get something done without getting hurt, make people prove that they want it as badly as I do.

I'm done proving myself, it's their turn now.

- Francis Frustration

Top Rated Comments on Youtube are (One of the ways) to make my day

"Not gonna lie .. When he said buns.. I was thinking of something else .."

- Francis Frustration

Inside The Mind of The Frustrated #28

"Sometimes, I wish I could change everything about myself. I wish I could become the person you've always dreamed of. Maybe then, you'd understand how I feel about you ... "

- Francis Frustration

Why is this so hard..

I never seem...

Funny enough,
Smart enough,
Talented enough,
Hot enough,
Sensitive enough,
Sweet enough,
Cute enough,
Rich enough,

... Overall I never seem to be good enough.

People always seem to find someone better than me;
Those same people always seem to expect me to keep hoping

How am I supposed to keep hoping when no one seems to show that it's worth hoping for?

There always seems to be someone one step ahead of me..

I feel cursed to be everyone's "friend" and nothing more...

- Francis Frustration

Fun Fact #3

"I'm losing all hope in relationships and believing more and more in having 'friends with benefits' as a way of having fun without all of the heartbreak, pain and disappointment"

- Francis Frustration

.... [Venting]

Sometimes I wonder.. Why I put all this effort in. Why I bother trying.  You clearly don't care about this enough to put any sort of seemingly clear effort into it.

Yet I seem to always put my all into it. Everyone says move on .. I'm better off looking somewhere else, but I'm always convincing myself you'd be worth it. That in the end we'd be happy for struggling through all of this.  We'll look back and feel proud.

You make me feel like I am standing on the highest point; as I look at the world below me. Sadly those moments are rare now a days... As much as I cherish them.. I feel hurt more often than I don't.

I feel rock bottom; like I'm never important or good enough.
I feel like everyone else seems to be worth your time, and you don't mind messing with my head 'cause you know I'll always forgive you.

You know how I feel, yet you still find entertainment in leading me to a sand trap.
I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with this anymore.

I can't sleep and when I do, I find myself with tear stains ...

You don't seem to get it.
It means too much to me?

Well... Forgive me ..
I can't just "like" someone else..
My feelings are for you.
I love YOU.
.... and for you I'll just be another one..
Just someone else to hang out with so you don't feel alone.

I really didn't mean anything to you did I?
The fact that you can make a promise like promising me you'll text me when you move away..

You never text me, you text him all the time.
... Guess I'm not worth your time..
I always seem to fall for your type..

The type that just uses me ..

- Francis Frustration

My "Role"

This is what I'll be

For the rest of my life

Nothing seems to ever change

Nothing ever seems to feel right.

You think you've gone past it all

You think it'd be different

Nothing ever changes

You'd be naive to think against it

It seems like

the only thing

that fate likes 

to make me 

is the single friend.

I'm going to be single,

and I'm always going to be there

For everyone but myself.

I'll be the guy who supports everyone else

but lives alone

I'll be that guy who everyone "appreciates" 

and wonders why he hasn't found anyone

Yet no one is willing to take the risk

Every group of friends needs a person like this.

I guess that has to be me,

no one else wants to step up...

- Francis Frustration

Love

Love

You think it couldn't get any more simple?

It couldn't get more complicated.

Love

You think you get it.

You could never be more far from the truth

Love

You think you've gotten hurt enough

You think that you'd finally have a moment

You could never be more wrong.

Love

You think people care about you

You could never be more naive 

Love

You think you've cried enough tears..

These tears prove you to be so wrong...

Oh so wrong...

- Francis Frustration

What If ...

What if
I told you that everything wasn't as it seems
If I told you you were more to me than I would admit

Would you believe me?
If I told you that thoughts of you
Flowed me head every day.
If I told you that,
I only wanted to do anything
Involving us together

Would you want to still be with me?

What if,

I told you that through everything
Through all my experiences,
I still wish you felt the same about me

Even though I know I couldn't force an opinion on you

Would you try and give me a chance?

What if ...

- Francis Frustration

Fun Fact #2

"Every morning I try and wake up extra early to work out. I've also started a diet where I only eat so much per meal and for each meal I do my best to have one of each food group on my plate.  I try to avoid fast food and junk food as much as I possibly can.  I also plan on jogging in the mornings when the weather warms up in the summer and I plan on taking my "Tuesdays" off York to hit gym at York to maintain a workout schedule.  With all that certainty, the one thing I am unsure about is whether or not I should maintain long hair or if I should just cut if off and go with short hair from now on.  As much as I love my long hair, it doesn't seem to be attractive to anyone else."

- Francis Frustration

Inside the Mind of The Frustrated #27

"There might be hundreds of thousands of girls out there... but you'll be the only one who will make me feel this way... You'll never understand exactly how many tears I shed every night ... I'm always afraid I'm going to lose you ... I feel like I mean nothing to you .. When you're my world"

- Francis Frustration

Fun Fact #1

I know I already did this before, but due to recent changes in my life I realized I needed to start a new.

New year = new me (In this case).

I am a full NHB supporter.
NHB = Never Held Back
(I am wearing an NHB shirt in the above picture)

NHB = The group led by DPrizzy AKA D Pryde AKA
Russell Llantino
If you don't know who he is, check him out on youtube!

Debut album coming soon!
Keep your eyes open for that!

- Francis Frustration